“It is performed with how I’ve felt in direction of myself and the way I’ve assumed others have felt in direction of me.”
Oliver Sim, the musician most likely greatest acknowledged as an authentic member of the British indie rock band the xx, is presently growing his profession as a solo artist.
His debut document, Hideous Bastard, is due out this fall. Oliver launched a brand new single, known as “Hideous,” off the upcoming album as we speak and shared a prolonged assertion alongside it that defined how private experiences have influenced his music.
Pinpointing “worry and disgrace” as distinguished themes in Hideous Bastard, Oliver spoke about his HIV analysis for the primary time and stated creating the document allowed him to “free [himself] of a number of the disgrace and worry that [he’s] felt” surrounding his standing since he was a youngster.
“Two thirds into the writing of my album … I realised I would been circling round one of many issues that has most likely precipitated me probably the most worry and disgrace. My HIV standing,” Oliver wrote in a message shared within the YouTube description of his music video for “Hideous” and individually on Instagram.
“I’ve lived with my standing since I used to be 17 and it is performed with how I’ve felt in direction of myself and the way I’ve assumed others have felt in direction of me, from that age and into my grownup life,” Oliver stated. “So fairly impulsively I wrote about it within the tune ‘Hideous’ and thought I might launch it into the world and be performed with it.”
As a substitute, per his mom’s recommendation, Oliver stated he “spent the previous two years” speaking to folks in his private community about his expertise dwelling with HIV. “Both folks I hadn’t informed but, or folks I had informed however hadn’t wished to speak a lot additional on it,” Oliver stated.
“I’ve spent the previous two years having these conversations, which was tough and uncomfortable to begin with, however has allowed me to really feel loads freer and has solely strengthened my relationship with myself and the folks in my life.”
“‘Am I hideous?’ Now not seems like a query I am asking to the skin world however fairly a counter lively one for myself,” he stated. “Scary because it nonetheless feels, I am excited to share this music with you and I hope you take pleasure in it. Plenty of love, Oliver xx.”